Lydia's Reclamation of Personal Power & Self Love

"Into The Ravine" by Lydia

"Everyone says you have to hit rock bottom for things to change. The Muddy depths, scrabbling for sunlight, not knowing who you are, feels strange.

Light gets sucked from my soul, those destructive habits I think they’ll make me feel whole.

I sleep, repeat, rave and deplete, searching for validation, love, acceptance and peace.

It never comes, it's always out of reach. I blame myself for everything that’s come to pass. I feel like a burden, I lose who I am at last.

Fight or flight, appease or disappear, clutching at chaos, it's all I hold near.

I’m too much, I’m always the problem, it’s my fault, my world has crumbled.

How do I shrink myself to cause the least the pain to everyone who meets me, I’m to blame. So, I spiral lower, I stare into the mirror. I don’t recognise my own glimmer.

And then it hits, I’m at the bottom, done and depleted, so I plan to exit this world, I’m no longer needed.

But saving hands, my own and of others, who made me realise there is a way out. I’m not a bother.

So, I crawl out, mud slippery and wet, brambles cut deep, wanting me to digress. Scars open, I live in my head. But this time I won’t let them win, I’m going to fight instead.

I keep climbing, reclaiming, my power, chuck away the addiction, those thoughts and actions, I no longer desire.

Taking it hour by hour. I don’t want it anymore, I don’t need it anymore, so I let it go away and throw it away on the floor.

The scars won’t define me, yet they will remind me that I survived, I fought back. I’m putting that life behind me.

Up the bank I climb, focusing on the flowers and the sky. I am the solution, I am the change, my soul starts to cry.

That chaos, that addiction, external validation I craved, I’ve tossed them away so now I can be brave. The journey has just begun, it takes time, patience and a plan. I’m glad I didn’t end it, I’m glad I made a stand.

I know I can bloom, rejoice in who I am and the healthy things I can consume.

I smile and laugh, I eat, I rejoice because I’m starting to love the woman I have become. To reclaim what lost, I’ve only just begun. The strength I see, beauty within, the love and authenticity can only be a win.

It was me who climbed out of the ravine, who decided to breathe, to live again.. Damn I’m a queen.

I rejoice in who I am, I reclaim my power and call this life mine….

I rise."



- "into the ravine" by Lydia

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